Seeing My Mother<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I avoid looking at myself in photos and mirrors. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As I grew up, the mirror on top of the dresser<\/p>\n\n\n\n
greeted me every morning. In an early photo,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have a gap-toothed grin, my left ear sticks<\/p>\n\n\n\n
out from under my riding helmet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I like myself best in the photo<\/p>\n\n\n\n
of me and my horse sailing over the jump,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
hands and arms in line with the bit,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
heels down, toes forward. The latest picture<\/p>\n\n\n\n
shows me hopping over the log,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
hands grabbing mane and toes sticking out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When last at home, waking to a morning<\/p>\n\n\n\n
of clearing closets of the clothes<\/p>\n\n\n\n
that my mother would no longer wear,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I sat on the edge of my bed,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
stared back at myself in that dresser mirror,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lines around the eyes, longish face, left ear sticking out. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
These days, I try not to catch myself in the mirror<\/p>\n\n\n\n
that came with the house but sometimes catch a glimpse<\/p>\n\n\n\n
of my reflection when walking by.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I see myself<\/p>\n\n\n\n
becoming my mother.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unbroken Journal<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dec 2017<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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