Seeing\nMy Mother<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\navoid looking at myself in photos and mirrors. \nAs I grew up,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
the\nmirror on top of the dresser greeted me every morning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In\nan early photo, I have a gap-toothed grin, my left ear sticks<\/p>\n\n\n\n
out\nfrom under my riding helmet. I hold the trophy\nout I front of me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In\nhigh school, I saw someone who wanted to fit in, I wore a paisley shirt<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(big\nat the time, knee socks weren\u2019t) to the dance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\nlike myself best in the photo of me and my horse sailing over the jump,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
hands\nand arms in line with the bit, heels down, toes forward. The latest picture<\/p>\n\n\n\n
shows\nme hopping over the log, hands grabbing mane and toes sticking out. When last<\/p>\n\n\n\n
at\nhome, waking to a morning of cleaning closets of the clothes that my mother\nwould no longer wear, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\nsat on the edge of the bed, stared back at myself, lines around the eyes,\nlongish face, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
left\near sticking out. These days, I try not\nto see myself in the mirror that came with the house<\/p>\n\n\n\n
but\nsometimes catch a glimpse of my second self when walking by. I look<\/p>\n\n\n\n
at\nmy reflection before brushing my teeth, I see myself becoming my mother.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unbroken\nJournal<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dec\n2017<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Seeing My Mother I avoid looking at myself in photos and mirrors. As I grew up, the mirror on top of the dresser greeted me every morning. In an early photo, I have a gap-toothed grin, my left ear sticks out from under my riding helmet. I hold the trophy out I front of me.… Continue reading Seeing my Mother<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-360","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems","category-published-poems"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/360","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=360"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/360\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":361,"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/360\/revisions\/361"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=360"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=360"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecatbirdsang.com\/www\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=360"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}